This post is dedicated to......

Today is a special day. A special day for a lady. (I think she love to be called lady than girl.) Who has being live in this world for 23 years. A special friend of mine who always be my side whenever I need her. (Of coz there's time when I just put her aside. ps:please dun get mad.) I am truly grateful to have her in my life at least for the past 5 and a half years and I wish for last til the end. I know this may sound silly or even hilarious to her (even when am writing this, i feel different) hahaha. Not to confess but just wanted to say something to you, about my best friend, Miss Jenny Lu. She is the youngest in our class but owes mingle with the elders, including me. If you ask me, what is the best part of her, I would answer, because she is my best friend. hahaha. Dun laugh,it is true! I think everyone knows me quite well. The ways I am and even sometime I am also get frustrated with myself. My hot temper and owes with the "Yes-No" button switch on and off.  Along the path, she is the one who stay and back to me (or maybe m her only friend?hahaha) Perhaps not. We are different in our ways. She is an outgoing person (looked like one) and very good in making friends. While, I am the opposite. She is a good speaker (not in Mandarin) and love talking! Seriously, she is chatty! I always tell her about that, and sometime i just can't stand with it and shouted "you are very noisy lar". then in fact of shutting up, she will answer you" If i really quiet, then you now m not ok, rite?" So, I go speechless. So, this is one of the funny parts of us. When we know that, we are not perfect to each other and might appeared annoying especially when we argued over something with different opinions. We might fight (orally) but in the end, everything goes back to normal. This is the part that i love the most about us. You are always be there.

I am not going to tell you the whole story about us. It is not the end, the middle, but it is just the beginning. I wish our friendship will stay last and just like the first time. (why sound like a lover's confession? =.=") Perhaps, we are each others' lover when we are still available. hahahah.On this day, I have no special gift for u, but I would like to give you my Best wishes with 101% sincerity.The hatred, the love, the tears that we shed, the laugh that we shared, I wish it will become one of your wonderful memories and be your dearest company in your future. Sorry for any mistakes that I have done or something that annoyed you, made you angry and getting more whitehair. You know, I did not mean it (hahahaha). And sorry again for not able to celebrate you special day with you (while we have done it for the past 5 years). I miss every moments we shared together and I really hope to you very soon.

Lastly, Happy Birthday to the one that often calls me "ah ma Kong"

May God bless you abundantly and shower you with tremendous love. 

Cheers! Love ya~~~

The "V" girl

very good in posing. 

cant recall when was this. hahaha.when ar?

i know you are a selfie-queen and this is one of your fav ones. ;)

Still remember the cupcakes? hahahah

Love this even though I looked fatigue here.hahaah

This was taken when my hair was short and it was still hot. I know you are pretty lar and you know it. 

wish to travel with you again and eat superb food!

the always "thumb up"girl

LET'S JUST END IT, GOODBYE.

i have had enough of letting myself down because of you. I have had enough of heartbreaking that makes me feeling like dying. And i have had enough to please you.

 

As days passed, i realised how foolish was I. Putting so much trust on you and you and you and you, broke it. I have had enough of this stupid thinking. Thinking that  maybe I might nt good enough for you, but instead, I am much better than you in every thing i do. God let us meet, but maybe never ask us to fall for each other, or maybe, you never fall into this trap. and yes, I did. Thank you for everything and I will erase your name in my life. For me, no one will have the privilege to stay. I tried to convince myself that everything can be back to normal but no. A BIG NO!!!!So, I will just end it and goodbye.

Tired

Sometime, I just like to keep silent.
It does not mean that I am rude.
I just want to peace myself from this hectic life,at least, a while.

Can't you see am forcing myself to smile and give response to you?
Can't you see it?
Don't say it.
I believe you nvr realise it.
Coz, 
you only care for yourself.
I know this is the way how you bring yourself in front of ppl, including me.
Don't give me dumb excuses like " I only act like this infront of you."
So what?
Do I have to gv you like " awww, really? " what do you expect?

Seriously,
I know , I know.
But did you know about me?
My feelings?
Ever thought about how your words, your actions affect someone's feelings?
Please be matured and grown up.
I am tired for being treating you like a kid.
I don't spoil ppl, for your information.
When I am nice to you, please appreciate.
And when I don't, I mean it.
I have the limits. As you knw it. and you shud know it now!

I don't like holding grudge towards someone.That's not me. But please,
respect others, like how you respect yourself.
RESPECT!!!!

Now then, I realised. Thank you.

I admit I thk a lot and it put me on bad mood sometimes.
But by thinking, am able to reflect esp on myself.

This year just started and I could sense the tense of the upcoming days.
Day by day, 
I learn something new.
Day by day,
I realise who they are.
Day by day,
I realise who I am.

and finally, I understand how things work.

We are forced to change. Nothing is going to be the same, like always. 
Things come and definitely will go someday.
I always think that we come to this world as a loner,
and will back to ground as lones as well.
So, I started not to care much. Believe me, the more you care, the more you get hurt. It nvr fail.
We are just human and we often forget that we are just human.
Don't expect too high on others, but yourself.
The most and only valuable asset that everyone possesses is himself/herself.
So, love ourselves more. Listen to our heart rather than ppl voice.

Now then I realised,
we are not the same anymore.
We argue, we fight, but all in silence.
You know what? Silence, in fact, is the loudest cry of a woman.

To make things look good, stay perfect. We choose to avoid telling our feelings, our thoughts. 
Because, its seemed so wrong to ruin the prefectioness. 
I know what I know, but I am not sure if am supposed to know.
And for sure, I have no ideas on others knowings as am not interested.
I miss the old me. When I totally could get myself out from all the rumours and gossips. 
The insensitivity towards others. That's part of me.

Don't...

tell

love

trust

too much.

Ultimately, we are the one will get hurt. 

#Tiredwiththisnonsenseworld#

The truth

The more that I discover about human,
the more that I love dogs. 

#peoplechangeBUThopeneverfade#

Happy happy new year!!!

Happy New Year to all! yeah, its 2014!and this is my first post of the year. It'd been awhile I din update my blog as I was away for my hols. Hahaha.Hols is meant for doing nothing and RELAX (awesome) well, at least I spent more quality time with my family esp with my dad.

Yes, its new year. Want to do some throwback?(feeling meeehhh). I thk I have lost some memories about 2013(the fact that am getting older*sigh) anyway, I have good time in 2013 even though encountered some conflicts. But well, it is a part of our lives. 

As the time passes, I realised I have grown up. I mean I have to. Although no big issues or cases happened in the past few years, those little and minor things have tought me a lot. 

As for 2014, the year of horse (ma year), I don't expect much on it. For me, a new year  means another chance for me to reflect on myself and do better in next time. Since it is the final year for my study, I believe that I need to work hard to the max and enjoy it to the fullest! hehehe

Thanks 2013 and thank you God for everything! For blessing and loving my family, me and my friends. 

A BIG BIG BIG THANK YOU!!! Being positive is always wonderful~~~It makes life less miserable. Be grateful for everything you have. Time do no wait and nth is eternal. Carpe diem. 


2014, ai ni yi shi. (love you forever).
Wishing that this year will continue be a good or better year for me.
 To my family and friends,
All all the best! and stay healthy (seriously)
and
always be happy~~^_^

#timepassesthingschangeButlearningdoesnotstop

~Have a nice weekends~

Say no to brain damage!

I would like to add on another tip. 

#11: Over exposed to sound pollution.

Seriously, I could not pay a little focus attention especially when I am reading or writing something, if there's noise. I dislike alot when ppl make noise purposely when they aware that someone is trying hard to concentrate. Perhaps they are attention seekers but to me, it just shows how childish you are and you lost my respect. 

#fedupwiththeseppl#

And Yeah, Here is the Outcome!

I would have my nap by now but I couldn't.

Something is bothering my mind.

And after all, I just want to declare "Yuhhhuuu..finally, the results is out! "

Such a long time for me to wait for it. I mean,everyone did rite?hehehe...

I have nothing much to say about the results. I feel blessed for sure. Praise to God for his almighty love and endless blessing. Honestly, I have went through a tough semester and without Him, I wouldn't sure where I was now. Thanks to my family for their supports and to my friends, thanks for guiding me all the way long... (oppsss, it sounds like a graduation speechhhh! hahaahha..no la...)

Congratulations to all my classmates and to myself. Our hard work was paid off.

 Keep it up! and never give up! 

*so touching when I received a text message from a friend who would never say like this to me. 

" Let's work harder this sem. You can do it."  =) 

Yes!!!We can do it!

。。。让自己不开心的事，最好不去听，不去看。。。这样会比较幸福一点。

。。。让自己不开心的事，最好不去听，不去看。。。这样会比较幸福一点。 (http://keemlim.blogspot.com/2013/06/blog-post_21.html)

很多时候，我们都会遇到一些不开心的事。

比如，

遇到不想见的人，

看到不厌烦的事，

听到很烦的声音，

又或者，

跟自己不喜欢的人在一起。

然后，

我们就会不爽，生气。 （其实是生闷气，因为对方往往都不知道）

 在这样的年纪，

我们很难甚至无法再去改变任何一个人的思想。

我很不耐一些事。遇上这些，我很容易紧张，烦躁，甚至很想打人。

好像，

看到有人抖脚，摇脚。

听到有人吃东西很大声，就算喝杯水，吃个水果，都会有声音，特大的声音。（妈呀~~最受不了了）

我承认我的听觉很敏感。 每次听到，总觉得快死掉。受不了。情况会变得更严重，如果对方是为女生。

礼仪全没了。 

你应该会很惊讶，因为我就是跟这样的人住在一起。

 有时候，

忍忍，就能得过且过。

但是，

我还是改不掉对那些事的恐惧和厌恶。

算了，

讲来讲去，

都是一样。难道对方就会懂得你的难处？ 毕竟，她也用这样的方法吃了整22年。（恕我不知他过往的饮食习惯，可能就是习惯了吧~也不改）

到头来，

我还是很辛苦的，

去“听”他吃东西。

希望那些日子赶快过。

#

As If .......

As If Like I Don't Care.

她们的故事，我的心事

他/她们说，

他/她们看，

他/她们想着。

故事说，

有这样的一件事。

你，我和他/她。

在同一个世界，

不同的时间。

相遇了。

你笑了，

我笑了，

她也笑了。

她哭了，

你哭了，

我也哭了。

说着说着，

说到我了。

聊着聊着，

原来，

我们都一样。

爱，

从来不曾离开。

爱，

从来就不会被背叛。

会变的是人心，

会改的是心情。

别人，

哦，不是别人。

就 

  你，

我

他/她。

你们，我们，他们。

一爱，

宇宙就变小了。

小得，

终于可以在这熙熙攘攘的人海里，

听见，

看见。。。

自己的摸样。

就算，

是倒影也好。

谢谢你，谢谢我，谢谢他/她。

 爱，

就

更爱了。

 

Thank You very very MUCH~~~^_^

I dun noe knw what else I should say beside "Thank You".

I was so surprised that when a friend of mine told me that my name was appeared on your blog and turned up to be one of the luckiest contestants that gt ur postcards from UK! Wow~I cnt believe what I heard till I saw it by my own eyes. Yeah~~THANK YOU VERY VERY MUCH APIS! ^_^

Honestly speaking, I nvr thought of receiving this special gift from a person and a place that far far away~~hehe

U knw what? The feelings was so different from when you gt ur lucky draw. I mean. I cnt describe hw exactly the feelings is. hoho. I only can say that I am so lucky to get this special gift.  Am so happy and glad that you have read my mail. hehe. Thx for reading it and promoting my blog. I appreciate it a lot and wishing you all the best！ Enjoying your life just like what you said:"  Do not think too much. Just do it! Carpe diem!!! :D"

 ~Life Through My Eyes~

/http://apistakkisah.blogspot.com/

 

#Courage doomed all possible 

Ok, here, I would like to....

Ok,

since there is someone who claiming about "credit",

then

I decided to make this special post.

only for that 'somone'.

Here,

I would like to say a BIG THANK YOU to YOU (Ms.J).

SORRY for not informing you and taking your so called *questions without your permission.

And thanks for reminding me and highlighting the issue as ur topic in ur blog....Ok, I have read thru it. :P

And Last, and the Last, Sorry for  the inconvenience caused and for any unpleasant feelings due to the issue....

Regards,

Your bestie. :P

ps: "geram juga...nie pon mau kira...yer...nt like it is urs bha....u oso copy and paste it de...macamlah I dun noe....hahahahhaha.....iya,bha. Happy 20122012 then.! "

Happiness~Blessed Christmas

Hello there.

It has been a while I din update my blog.

Well,

am busy with my princess-liked life.hahaha...just kidding.

anyway, am on my holidays and I love it very much.

Although some of my frens are worrying about the result,

am just act like cool....But, is jut LIKE.

Actually,

am quite nervous too, but what to do?

I really dun want to think about the result, because I am ready for the worst.

I knw hw well or should I say how bad I did last sem?hahaha..anyway,I just dun want to stress myself up and seriously it will SPOIL my precious Holidays! hahahaha.....However, am still hoping that everything will go well and I still have the strength and confidence to move on after this semester.Next sem, will totally a big challenge for me.Honestly speaking, I have done little efforts for next sem. I mean, am nt fully ready.hehe...well, I always believe "WHATEVER WILL BE WILL BE"~~~hehe...God bless!

oh yeah, back to the topic. Tonight, there was a X'mas parade in town. And initially, I have no intention to go and watch but when I thought back, I should go since I have nothing to do at home..hahaha...and you guess what? Miracles happened to me. I saw not ony beautiful and sparkling Christmas trees but I saw her, him, and him.Haha..I was shocked but at the same time, I felt wanted to cry..Aigooo....I was just too touched about it.....Meeting them was too unexpected! hahaha......all of sudden, I felt like am the happiest person on the earth....hahahha.....I dun noe how to describe the feelings.. It just like seeing someone that ....ermmm..dun noe la...I thk my bestie ever saw my reaction....hahahha.....

Everything seemed like has been arranged and if I were not there, maybe I was just gt bored at home....And this little gift makes the night more meaningful and beautiful. Those adorable people, sweet moments, I appreciate a lot!  

p:s :I just realised that this post hasent been posted...oh my, I 4gt, I saved it in my draft...haha.ok, it's nt too late rite? Cheers! 

Hey, as you wished~~ :P

Ok, ma fren asked me to update my blog.

She is bored since nth new on her reading lists.

So,

I just updated.

As she wished.

Ok,

That's all.

Goodnite peeps~~

-HappySunday-

 

#iknowyouwanttolaugh#

不要用我的善良来衬托出你的伟大！

不要用我的善良来衬托出你的伟大！

continue posting picha~~~uha~~~

!OUR CHILDREN, OUR HOPE!

*SMILE*

THE TEACHERS

NEVER_STOP_DREAMING

TEACHER_TO_BE

TEACHER_TO_BE 2

THE_TEACHERS

Wonder~

I am wondering now.

Do you like me actually?

Who am I to you?

If you really gt the feelings,

please tell me.

BUT,

definitely nt now.

Remember?

We were used to be close last time.

And now,

Maybe we can turn back the situation like last time, like what we used to it.

But,

what to do?

AM still WAITING,

AM still WONDERING.

WHY,

the word seems like never come out from your mouth.

A word that can make everythg clear and settle. 

Aigoooooo >.<".......

BIG IV~Program Anak Angkat. * I call her mummy. :)

I just done with BIG Phase IV. The program is called Anak Angkat. I did it at Kg. Banjar, Keningau. I have 10 siblings including other 4 adik angkat. Hehe. 3D2N. We felt so shy and difficult to move at first. We have no idea on what to call her. At last, we call her "mummy". Yeah, seriously. It was so awkward. But soon after, the awkwardness began to lost. I love my family angkat. Or I should say my family. We are really like a family where my mummy takes care of us very well. I learnt a lot from her and she is bit talkative which can break the silence and uneasiness between us. My little brother, Asyraf. My little sister, Fazlina or Nina.and My mummy, Hasmi.

What a lovely family. Although we only spent few days at there, but I can feel how close and how love I have them all. They are not really wealthy but their love is worth than anything. On the last day, my mummy cried. Ohhhhh, my muummy, You are being so lovely. I never know that we meant so much to you. I apologise for everything. If I have more time, I am sure I can do better and do more for you. Mummy, please don't cry. We surely will meet one day. We won't forget the promise we made. Hari Raya Haji, is comingggg....ngeeee......

My family angkat *the little girl in peace-the girl nextdoor.haha

Left to right : Daya, Asyraf, Nina and Rhodeon. ^_^

The neighbors

My mummy. <3 b="b">

My brothers : Teo and Rhodeon

On the way to KG.BANJAR *nervous*kunun

The ladies. *Smile*Like this

 

Sorry

Why it is so difficult for u to speak the word out?

If u really mean for forgiveness, at least, you should say it.

I never noe, our friendship meant dat much to you.

I was shocked and I am glad.

To have u, 

this fren.

Everything seems to be over and turn to be normal again.

But,

am still waiting,

For

A

Word.

# Iappreciatewhatudidforme.