Happy happy new year!!!

Happy New Year to all! yeah, its 2014!and this is my first post of the year. It'd been awhile I din update my blog as I was away for my hols. Hahaha.Hols is meant for doing nothing and RELAX (awesome) well, at least I spent more quality time with my family esp with my dad.

Yes, its new year. Want to do some throwback?(feeling meeehhh). I thk I have lost some memories about 2013(the fact that am getting older*sigh) anyway, I have good time in 2013 even though encountered some conflicts. But well, it is a part of our lives. 

As the time passes, I realised I have grown up. I mean I have to. Although no big issues or cases happened in the past few years, those little and minor things have tought me a lot. 

As for 2014, the year of horse (ma year), I don't expect much on it. For me, a new year  means another chance for me to reflect on myself and do better in next time. Since it is the final year for my study, I believe that I need to work hard to the max and enjoy it to the fullest! hehehe

Thanks 2013 and thank you God for everything! For blessing and loving my family, me and my friends. 

A BIG BIG BIG THANK YOU!!! Being positive is always wonderful~~~It makes life less miserable. Be grateful for everything you have. Time do no wait and nth is eternal. Carpe diem. 


2014, ai ni yi shi. (love you forever).
Wishing that this year will continue be a good or better year for me.
 To my family and friends,
All all the best! and stay healthy (seriously)
and
always be happy~~^_^

#timepassesthingschangeButlearningdoesnotstop

~Have a nice weekends~

想爱却不能爱。

终于明白那种感觉了。

每次的邂逅，

并不代表是开始。

也许，只是昙花一县。

不会再犯第二次。

毕竟，受过的伤还隐隐作痛。

有一种爱，

藏在心里就好。

而我也只是喜欢你。

来不及爱，

就不敢再走下去了。

或许，

对你来说，不知道一切事情真相是不公平的。

但是，

对我们彼此是无疑最有利的。

依然是朋友，

却不敢再动心了。

希望你能明白，也不会再想了。

我们都错了。把事情想得太简单，未来想得太近。

可以说是没勇气吧！但是，我不想再受伤了。

一样的情况，

不想再一头栽进去。

可能会觉得可惜，但是，

在错的时间，遇到对的人不是件好事。

哪怕，你。。并不是对的人。

原来，

那伤口，还在。只是麻木了痛。痛，就之所以不在了。

直到有天，机会来到，我才发现我有多懦弱，有多怕受伤。我， 再也不是以前那个坚强的我了。

面对感情，我。。。。变得更胆小了。

我缺乏安全感。所以，我从我身边的人得到我要的安全感。

这几年，一直在放手。

放开一些，我不想要的。

放开一些，我想要的。

事事不能如愿啊~所以， 努力的学会放下，放手。 但是却很怕，幸福就会被放走。。

有时候，真的很矛盾。

很累了，不想在为这些事情而烦了。

答应自己，

过得更快乐！！ ^_^v

And then, here the story goes.....

Sometimes, 
We need to sacrify to get something.
As for a relationship, we need to get hurt at first, then we will only learn and know how to become a better person, probably, it teaches us the real meaning of love.

I met a lot of ppl in my life. Boys and girls, men and women. They all are so different and unique on their own ways. And sometimes, I do not understand  their doings but most of the time, I learn from them. 

I see how funny our lives can be, how cruel the reality can be and how strong are we to cope and endure all these things. 

To all my friends,
Please stay strong until the end of the world.
Please remember the one who cares about you, and love you.
Please keep in mind that, there are so many things outside there that are more worth for you to chase after.
If we had a dream, and we know that it might not come true, then change the dream.

No one is going to die without someone.
They come and touched our lives for some reasons which we might not able to see it now. I believe, one day, when we reach to a point, we will only aware of all the ideas behind these and all we can do is just smile.

It hits my mind when I know the truth, *I hope it's the truth.
I am nt sure of the feelings that I have now. But somehow, I feel like I was being treated like a fool.
A fool that overconfident all over herself.
A fool that always believes that nothing is going to happen and things will remain the same.

I duno what you thk all this while, but to me, you are a good friend and I appreciate it. Things change and do humans.  

Just come and go.
 Hi and bye. 
That's how life goes. 
At the end, who will be waiting there?
I also don't know (=.=".......)

Alright, enough for tonight. 
Gonna spend more time on study. *seriously, I have been wasting time like hell!*

GOODNIGHT PEEPS! 

 

When the love blooms

Last week, I went to Kundasang with my classmates. 
I really enjoyed the trip and love all my friends.
It was freaking cold but the screnary was truelly breathtaking! 
I would like to stay there since the ppl there were so fair and prettyyy..ahaha...But after some thinking, I decided not to..hehehe...(coz it's really cold!!!)

我很好。。。你呢？

最近这几年，

我都过得很好。

很快乐。

就算遇到让人不愉快的事，

总会很快的好起来。

这几年，

我真的很幸福。

我自个都忘了上次哭是什么时候。

是去年。

我伯父过世的时候。

能不哭是好事。

没理由让你哭，更是幸福到家。

可是，

我却很想找个理由哭。

很久没哭了。

有时候，总觉得缺了什么。

只记得笑。

如果忘了哭，我怕我会变得不懂的哭了。

所以，

久久我就会找个理由来哭。

想想伤心事，

哪怕是看个悲伤地戏也好，

总要哭出来。

这几年，我都是那么过的。

总比被别人伤了心哭好。

别人不懂我为何那么做。

可是，

我知道就好了。

哭过就好了~~~

#晚安了世界#

Say no to brain damage!

I would like to add on another tip. 

#11: Over exposed to sound pollution.

Seriously, I could not pay a little focus attention especially when I am reading or writing something, if there's noise. I dislike alot when ppl make noise purposely when they aware that someone is trying hard to concentrate. Perhaps they are attention seekers but to me, it just shows how childish you are and you lost my respect. 

#fedupwiththeseppl#

Beyond the chalkboard.

The practical is almost come to the end.

I am still having complicated relationship with teaching.

Sometimes, I do love teaching but sometimes don't.

I love because I enjoyed every moment when my kids learn some thing new.

I love because I know I can help them to improve or to alter their lives.

I love because I see the classroom is a teaching lab for me to carry out all those pedagogical hypothesis. 

I love just the way how my teachers love me always.

Until today, I still remember how my teachers used to teach me, guide me and help me. The way they nurturing me might different from what educators doing nowadays, but what I learnt, I learnt it by heart. 

Thank you teacher.

 

 

However, I felt demotivated at times because somethings just could extinguish your teaching excitement.

 

Clerical work=>overload.

Educational policies=>keep on changing

Resources/materials(trainees)=>lacking/not comprehensive

 

So far, that are the reasons why I don't like teaching sometimes, especially the first one. I personally believe that teachers should not be asked to do so much clerical work as the core role is to teach. And, I hope the authority would take some initiative to reduce the burden placed on the teachers. By then, we can have more flexible time to teach and thus improve the quality of students' learning.

 The significance of a teacher did not show through how much they should do for the children but it is about what we can do beyond the chalkboard.

#mcmlaIdahposting#

 

Anyway, I should keep my love to teaching more than the "dis-likeness". #positivethinking# and I believe I can!! Fighting!!