想爱却不能爱。

终于明白那种感觉了。

每次的邂逅，

并不代表是开始。

也许，只是昙花一县。

不会再犯第二次。

毕竟，受过的伤还隐隐作痛。

有一种爱，

藏在心里就好。

而我也只是喜欢你。

来不及爱，

就不敢再走下去了。

或许，

对你来说，不知道一切事情真相是不公平的。

但是，

对我们彼此是无疑最有利的。

依然是朋友，

却不敢再动心了。

希望你能明白，也不会再想了。

我们都错了。把事情想得太简单，未来想得太近。

可以说是没勇气吧！但是，我不想再受伤了。

一样的情况，

不想再一头栽进去。

可能会觉得可惜，但是，

在错的时间，遇到对的人不是件好事。

哪怕，你。。并不是对的人。

原来，

那伤口，还在。只是麻木了痛。痛，就之所以不在了。

直到有天，机会来到，我才发现我有多懦弱，有多怕受伤。我， 再也不是以前那个坚强的我了。

面对感情，我。。。。变得更胆小了。

我缺乏安全感。所以，我从我身边的人得到我要的安全感。

这几年，一直在放手。

放开一些，我不想要的。

放开一些，我想要的。

事事不能如愿啊~所以， 努力的学会放下，放手。 但是却很怕，幸福就会被放走。。

有时候，真的很矛盾。

很累了，不想在为这些事情而烦了。

答应自己，

过得更快乐！！ ^_^v

And then, here the story goes.....

Sometimes, 
We need to sacrify to get something.
As for a relationship, we need to get hurt at first, then we will only learn and know how to become a better person, probably, it teaches us the real meaning of love.

I met a lot of ppl in my life. Boys and girls, men and women. They all are so different and unique on their own ways. And sometimes, I do not understand  their doings but most of the time, I learn from them. 

I see how funny our lives can be, how cruel the reality can be and how strong are we to cope and endure all these things. 

To all my friends,
Please stay strong until the end of the world.
Please remember the one who cares about you, and love you.
Please keep in mind that, there are so many things outside there that are more worth for you to chase after.
If we had a dream, and we know that it might not come true, then change the dream.

No one is going to die without someone.
They come and touched our lives for some reasons which we might not able to see it now. I believe, one day, when we reach to a point, we will only aware of all the ideas behind these and all we can do is just smile.

It hits my mind when I know the truth, *I hope it's the truth.
I am nt sure of the feelings that I have now. But somehow, I feel like I was being treated like a fool.
A fool that overconfident all over herself.
A fool that always believes that nothing is going to happen and things will remain the same.

I duno what you thk all this while, but to me, you are a good friend and I appreciate it. Things change and do humans.  

Just come and go.
 Hi and bye. 
That's how life goes. 
At the end, who will be waiting there?
I also don't know (=.=".......)

Alright, enough for tonight. 
Gonna spend more time on study. *seriously, I have been wasting time like hell!*

GOODNIGHT PEEPS! 

 

When the love blooms

Last week, I went to Kundasang with my classmates. 
I really enjoyed the trip and love all my friends.
It was freaking cold but the screnary was truelly breathtaking! 
I would like to stay there since the ppl there were so fair and prettyyy..ahaha...But after some thinking, I decided not to..hehehe...(coz it's really cold!!!)

我很好。。。你呢？

最近这几年，

我都过得很好。

很快乐。

就算遇到让人不愉快的事，

总会很快的好起来。

这几年，

我真的很幸福。

我自个都忘了上次哭是什么时候。

是去年。

我伯父过世的时候。

能不哭是好事。

没理由让你哭，更是幸福到家。

可是，

我却很想找个理由哭。

很久没哭了。

有时候，总觉得缺了什么。

只记得笑。

如果忘了哭，我怕我会变得不懂的哭了。

所以，

久久我就会找个理由来哭。

想想伤心事，

哪怕是看个悲伤地戏也好，

总要哭出来。

这几年，我都是那么过的。

总比被别人伤了心哭好。

别人不懂我为何那么做。

可是，

我知道就好了。

哭过就好了~~~

#晚安了世界#

Say no to brain damage!

I would like to add on another tip. 

#11: Over exposed to sound pollution.

Seriously, I could not pay a little focus attention especially when I am reading or writing something, if there's noise. I dislike alot when ppl make noise purposely when they aware that someone is trying hard to concentrate. Perhaps they are attention seekers but to me, it just shows how childish you are and you lost my respect. 

#fedupwiththeseppl#

Beyond the chalkboard.

The practical is almost come to the end.

I am still having complicated relationship with teaching.

Sometimes, I do love teaching but sometimes don't.

I love because I enjoyed every moment when my kids learn some thing new.

I love because I know I can help them to improve or to alter their lives.

I love because I see the classroom is a teaching lab for me to carry out all those pedagogical hypothesis. 

I love just the way how my teachers love me always.

Until today, I still remember how my teachers used to teach me, guide me and help me. The way they nurturing me might different from what educators doing nowadays, but what I learnt, I learnt it by heart. 

Thank you teacher.

 

 

However, I felt demotivated at times because somethings just could extinguish your teaching excitement.

 

Clerical work=>overload.

Educational policies=>keep on changing

Resources/materials(trainees)=>lacking/not comprehensive

 

So far, that are the reasons why I don't like teaching sometimes, especially the first one. I personally believe that teachers should not be asked to do so much clerical work as the core role is to teach. And, I hope the authority would take some initiative to reduce the burden placed on the teachers. By then, we can have more flexible time to teach and thus improve the quality of students' learning.

 The significance of a teacher did not show through how much they should do for the children but it is about what we can do beyond the chalkboard.

#mcmlaIdahposting#

 

Anyway, I should keep my love to teaching more than the "dis-likeness". #positivethinking# and I believe I can!! Fighting!!

I thk I really like you.hehehe

I thk I like you.
I thk I really like you.
Ok, BYE~~

What Birthday Are You??

Look Up Your Birthday And See What You Are.....

Click READ MORE below to view the entire list

January 01 - 09 ~ Dog
January 10 - 24 ~ Mouse
January 25 - 31 ~ Lion
February 01 - 05 ~ Cat
February 06 - 14 ~ Dove
February 15 - 21 ~ Turtle
February 22 - 28 ~ Panther

March 01 - 12 ~ Monkey
March 13 - 15 ~ Lion
March 16 - 23 ~ Mouse
March 24 - 31 ~ Cat

April 01 - 03 ~ Dog
April 04 - 14 ~ Panther
April 15 - 26 ~ Mouse
April 27 - 30 ~ Turtle

May 01 - 13 ~ Monkey
May 14 - 21 ~ Dove
May 22 - 31 ~ Lion

June 01 - 03 ~ Mouse
June 04 - 14 ~ Turtle
June 15 - 20 ~ Dog
June 21 - 24 ~ Monkey
June 25 - 30 ~ Cat

July 01 - 09 ~ Mouse
July 10 - 15 ~ Dog
July 16 - 26 ~ Dove
July 27 - 31 ~ Cat

August 01 - 15 ~ Monkey
August 16 - 25 ~ Mouse
August 26 - 31 ~ Turtle

September 01 - 14 ~ Dove
September 15 - 27 ~ Cat
September 28 - 30 ~ Dog

October 01 - 15 ~ Monkey
October 16 - 27 ~ Turtle
October 28 - 31 ~ Panther

November 01 - 16 ~ Lion
November 17 - 30 ~ Cat

December 01 - 16 ~ Dog
December 17 - 25 ~ Monkey
December 26 - 31 ~ Dove

If you are a

Dog : A very loyal and sweet person. Your loyalty can never be doubted. You are quite honest and sincere when it comes to your attitude towards working. You are a very simple person, indeed. Absolutely hassle free, humble and down-to-earth!! That explains the reason why your friends cling on to you! You have a good taste for clothes. If your wardrobe is not updated with what is trendy, you sure are depressed. Popular and easy-going. You have a little group of dignified friends, all of them being quality-personified. Repost This If It's True For You.!!

If you are a Mouse : Always up to some sort of a mischief! The mischievous gleam in your eyes is what makes you so cute and attractive to everyone. You are an extremely fun-to-be-with kind of person. No wonder people seek for your company and look forward to include you for all get-together's. However, you are sensitive which is a drawback. People need to select their words while talking to you. If someone tries to fiddle around and play with words while dealing with you, it is enough to invite your wrath. God bless the person then!Repost This If It's True For You.!!

If you are a Lion : Quite contradictory to your name, you are a peace loving person. You best try to avoid a situation wherein you are required to fight. An outdoor person, you dislike sitting at one place for a long duration. Popular and easy-going. You are a born leader, and have it in you how to tactfully derive work from people. People love the way you always treat them. You love being loved, and when you receive your share of limelight from someone, you are all theirs!!!!Repost This If It's True For You.!!

If you are a Cat : An extremely lovable, adorable person, sometimes shy, with a passion for quick wit. At times, you prefer quietness. You love exploring various things and going into depth of each thing. Under normal circumstances you're cool but when given a reason to, you are like a volcano waiting to erupt. You're a fashion bird. People look forward to you as an icon associated with fashion. Basically, you mingle along freely but don't like talking much to strangers. People feel very easy in your company. You observe care in choosing your friends.Repost This If It's True For You.!!

If you are a Turtle : You are near to perfect and nice at heart. The examples of your kindness are always circulated in groups of people. You, too, love peace. You wouldn't like to retaliate even to a person who is in the wrong. You are loved due to this. You do not wish to talk behind one's back. People love the way you always treat them. You can give, give and give love, and the best part is that you do not expect it back in return. You are generous enough. Seeing things in a practical light is what remains the best trait of you guys.Repost This If It's True For You.!!

If you are a Dove : You symbolize a very happy-go-lucky approach in life. Whatever the surroundings may be, grim or cheerful, you remain unaffected. In fact, you spread cheer wherever you go. You are the leader of your group of friends and good at consoling people in their times of need. You dislike hypocrisy and tend to shirk away from hypocrites. They can never be in your good books, no matter what. You are very methodical and organized in your work. No amount of mess, hence, can ever encompass you. Beware, it is easy for you to fall in love....Repost This If It's True For You.!!

If you are a Panther : You are mysterious. You are someone who can handle pressure with ease, and can handle any atmosphere without going berserk. You can be mean at times, and love to gossip with your selected group. Very prim and proper. You like all situations and things to be in the way you desire, which, sometimes is not possible. As a result, you may lose out in some relationships. But otherwise, you love to help people out from difficult and tight spots when they really need you.Repost This If It's True For You.!!

If you are a Monkey : Very impatient and hyper!!! You want things to be done as quick as possible. At heart, you are quite simple and love if you are the center of attraction. That way, you people are unique. You would like to keep yourself safe from all the angles. Shall your name be dragged or featured in any sort of a controversy, you then go all panicky. Therefore, you take your precautions from the very beginning. When you foresee anything wrong, your sixth sense is what saves you from falling in traps. Quite a money minded bunch you people are!! Repost This If It's True For You.!!

To begin

To begin is to destroy.

And Yeah, Here is the Outcome!

I would have my nap by now but I couldn't.

Something is bothering my mind.

And after all, I just want to declare "Yuhhhuuu..finally, the results is out! "

Such a long time for me to wait for it. I mean,everyone did rite?hehehe...

I have nothing much to say about the results. I feel blessed for sure. Praise to God for his almighty love and endless blessing. Honestly, I have went through a tough semester and without Him, I wouldn't sure where I was now. Thanks to my family for their supports and to my friends, thanks for guiding me all the way long... (oppsss, it sounds like a graduation speechhhh! hahaahha..no la...)

Congratulations to all my classmates and to myself. Our hard work was paid off.

 Keep it up! and never give up! 

*so touching when I received a text message from a friend who would never say like this to me. 

" Let's work harder this sem. You can do it."  =) 

Yes!!!We can do it!

We deserve CLEAN AIR!

http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2013/6/25/nation/13282582&sec=nation

。。。让自己不开心的事，最好不去听，不去看。。。这样会比较幸福一点。

。。。让自己不开心的事，最好不去听，不去看。。。这样会比较幸福一点。 (http://keemlim.blogspot.com/2013/06/blog-post_21.html)

很多时候，我们都会遇到一些不开心的事。

比如，

遇到不想见的人，

看到不厌烦的事，

听到很烦的声音，

又或者，

跟自己不喜欢的人在一起。

然后，

我们就会不爽，生气。 （其实是生闷气，因为对方往往都不知道）

 在这样的年纪，

我们很难甚至无法再去改变任何一个人的思想。

我很不耐一些事。遇上这些，我很容易紧张，烦躁，甚至很想打人。

好像，

看到有人抖脚，摇脚。

听到有人吃东西很大声，就算喝杯水，吃个水果，都会有声音，特大的声音。（妈呀~~最受不了了）

我承认我的听觉很敏感。 每次听到，总觉得快死掉。受不了。情况会变得更严重，如果对方是为女生。

礼仪全没了。 

你应该会很惊讶，因为我就是跟这样的人住在一起。

 有时候，

忍忍，就能得过且过。

但是，

我还是改不掉对那些事的恐惧和厌恶。

算了，

讲来讲去，

都是一样。难道对方就会懂得你的难处？ 毕竟，她也用这样的方法吃了整22年。（恕我不知他过往的饮食习惯，可能就是习惯了吧~也不改）

到头来，

我还是很辛苦的，

去“听”他吃东西。

希望那些日子赶快过。

#

It's Human Nature

For a time, I have been wandering over this trifle. I kept thinking or better to say that, making sense of what I saw, heard and experienced. When I was young, this world seemed to be a wonderful playground which I would take myself into it. But, as I grown up. Things has changed.

Cheating, lying, betrayal, jealousy, hatred,and so and so.......heartbreaking!
But,
it is human nature.

So? Life should not overwhelmed with these hassle.
Come rain or shine, the journey has to be continued.

#owhhh, hazy,hazy,hazy.*coughing*bye~~~

I hava nth to write

Hello there, here I am again...I have nth to write or lazy to do it...hahah..so, i just browse tru some blogs and came to these questions. Looked interesting and I would like to answer it after some time. Hheh....Here we go~~


1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE? No one..haha

2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED? a day during the break. hahaha.. i cried for a lousy n bit nonsense reason.... a drama, a traditional Hong Kong drama. What the heck man~~huhu

3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING? yeah, but still can be improved.ehehe

4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT? Luncheon? hahaha

5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS? Noooo...but will hv...maybe,,,,hehehe 8)

6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU? wowwww. that's crazy man! but sounds amazing..should try~~ehehe.

7. DO YOU USE SARCASM? aha~~no larrrr :P

8. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS? Yesssss

9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP? sure. Longing for it.hahaha

10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL? Quaker..always the best choice~~

11. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF? like never?hahaha

-WHAT HAPPENED TO #12? I dunno, ask Brooky…I got this from her :-)

13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM? I seldom eat ice-cream! 

14. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE? the way they talk?hahaa..dun noe lar, I observe everything. *sometimes

15. RED OR PINK? RED!

16. WHAT IS YOUR LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF? seeking perfection

17. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST ? my dad, my mum, my uncle, my grandma (R.I.P), my bros, and my cat..huhu...and fishie~~~huhuhuhuh...everything~~HOME

18. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO COMPLETE THIS LIST? dun noe...depends on them larrr...haaha

19. WHAT COLOR PANTS AND SHOES ARE YOU WEARING? Wearing a short blue pants and bare foot. am lying on my bed man~~~ :P

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21. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? my rumete's laughter and RM's sound effects. *annoying sometimes when u make it loud...ehee...u gt what I mean? 8)

22. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE? Blue which according to my little bro. it is a colour who makes ppl stresssss!!!hahaha

23. FAVORITE SMELL? my house's cloth washing detergent...hahahah....like it....and no cats' poop!!!ABSOLUTELY NO~~~

24. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? My uncle~~~

25. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO YOU? just like coz providing me these random questions..hehehehe

26. FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH?badminton

27. HAIR COLOR? Dark 

28. EYE COLOR?  Brown

29. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS? No.

30. FAVORITE FOOD? still finding...hehehe..seaweed?

31. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS? can I chose both?haha

32. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED? Greedy ghost~~
33. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING? dark blue

34. SUMMER OR WINTER?hurrrrmmm, I never experience winter, btw, ...summer, definitely.

35. HUGS OR KISSES? Hugs~~and kissess...heheheh

36. FAVORITE DESSERT? pudding~~love it!

37. MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND? dun noe

38. LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND? No idea.

39. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW? reader digest. my fav..hehehe

40. WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD? =.=" a tail?

41. WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON TV LAST NIGHT? dun hv TV here~~

42. FAVORITE SOUND(S)?music box sounds~~chiming

43. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES?none....

44. WHAT IS THE FARTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME? KL~~hahaha 

45. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT? what?sixth sense? losing its accurateness graduallyyy....hahahha...

46. WHERE WERE YOU BORN? Sibu, Sarawak....or Malaysia =).

47. WHOSE ANSWERS ARE YOU LOOKING FORWARD TO GETTING BACK? someone who is reading this. hahaha

48. HOW DID YOU MEET YOUR SPOUSE/SIGNIFICANT OTHER? I’m not married. =.="....

49. IS THE CUP HALF FULL OR HALF EMPTY? cup????

50. IF YOU COULD SIT DOWN TO DINNER WITH FIVE PEOPLE WHO WOULD YOU CHOOSE?my dad, my mum, my uncle, my brother anddddd my brother...hehehe...couldnt thk of someone else beside my family.....*such a not creative answer* ehe....gv up~~

BYE~~~

place : room 109...backdrop : my comfy bed...lead character : me and the baju kurung hang behind~~XD

Welcome back!

Finally, "honeymoon" is over.
Welcome back to the reality.
And I wish all the best to myself and friends.
Continue fighting! 
 and about the results?
I dun ave any idea...and started to worry.
#finger crossing

Today is Father's day.
My hero's day. Wishing all the fathers in this world Happy Father's Day.
Love you, daddy and my cute uncle.hahahah....
May God bless you all always.

As If .......

As If Like I Don't Care.

http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2013/5/19/nation/13122310&sec=nation

http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2013/5/19/nation/13122310&sec=nation

曾经,我们也幸福过

妈妈，

母亲节快乐！

身在远方的您，好吗？

身体没出状况吧？

想念我们吗？

我。。。

想您了。

对不起，

离你，

越来越远。

对不起，

却又更靠近了。

可是，

却无法相见。

妈妈，

曾经，

我们也很幸福过。

曾经，

我们也那么开心过。

可是，

却都只是曾经。

以为，

会很久，很久。

原来，

有过幸福，

才懂得，

幸福。

妈妈，

我们爱您。

I love you, mum.

Missing you. 

Traiiiiiiii

Happy ever after?

Hurmmm..

We are not perfect, but we TRY to be.

Life isn't perfect either, but there are always some perfects moments in our lives which makes the journey worth-while.

I want to TRY,

I will TRY,

And,

I need to TRY!

I like the song, "Try" by Pink.

The lyrics inspires me!

Where there is desire
There is gonna be a flame
Where there is a flame
Someone's bound to get burned
But just because it burns
Doesn't mean you're gonna die
You've gotta get up and try, and try, and try
Gotta get up and try, and try, and try
You gotta get up and try, and try, and try

Excuses? Reasons?

Everything that we do, we do have a reason for it.

But sometime,more often, we always find thousands of reasons to do something.

I mean, excuses.

Is it difficult to ADMIT that we are WRONG?

Do we really need to THE WINNER of every time's ARGUMENTS ?

Do we UNDERSTAND what the real situation is?

Do we really do our best to avoid any HURT feelings towards anyone?

Do we THINK about our parents, our God before we act or say something?

And do you believe in Karma?

Yes, I do believe. I am a Buddhist and I believe. But what influences me the most is that I do see Karma happens everyday in everyone around me, including myself. Buddhist believe that every actions we do, it will affects others, especially our family. It is bond and linked well. So, never underestimate the power of our words and acts. I admit, I am just a normal person who do mistakes like others. But, there are some principles that grounded in me and I always hold into it.

I understand every individual has his/her own personalities and ways of lives.However, in certain aspects,what we normally will do or should do, or what we call "common sense" things, we do expect others to do the same. And I coined it as The rules of life. 

1. Respect others. No matter who we are, where we at, or how close we to a person, never ever try to manipulate them. Especially, the elders, our teachers, our friends and etc. 

2. Play smart. Frankly speaking, people nowadays, in order to survive, need to play smart.No matter how nice you are to others, there is always a "devil" tries to kill you. You do nothing wrong, but still you are summoned for some faults. Silly isn't? I have seen many alike cases happened in my live. And I am one of the victims. Play smart, think fast to protect ourselves. People are good in masking up themselves in any cases. So, do not let ourselves get into unreasonable troubles.

3. As we grow up, we learn. Although, people say that AGE is just a number and it does not show our maturity, over the years, certainly, we went through countless lives incidents and gained experiences. With this, at least, we learn something from our past. I wonder why some people are still unable to think maturely? At least, matured than before. Why they are still act like a Form 5 student? Why they never think of others? Come on, we are the teachers-to-be, don't we think that its time for us to change? To be a real teacher?

4. We mean what we said. Word is one of the powerful weapons in this world. So, watch over our words. The responsibility is there. Maybe we just try to pull someone's legs, but, things may turn out bad to the receiver. It is hurt enough to make you cry. But you have no one to blame coz you want to maintain the relationship right? Especially someone who is close to you and difficult to understand people's feelings. That's is difficult.

5.  Nothing is free in this world. Want something? Try hard, work hard and dun give up easily. If just saying that you want this and that without actions, then you are simply dreaming and it never come true.

6. Behave well. I mean, do what we are supposed to do. As we realised that there are no more sayings that I just do what I like. I don't care. It's not your business. Well, try it and will see the consequences are more than we could imagine. Don't believe? Just try la....You are just making others suffering and you gonna eat yourselves in some other times. Please la, really2 irresponsible, you know? I mean, common sense and you act like you are right and nothing to sorry for. 

#Disappointed and hope for a better change. 

 Pray & don't give up#